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"Eden?"
"Hmm," Eden murmured,
unwilling to leave the comforting warmth of Jackson's chest. She
hadn't thought a person could actually doze off while on their
feet, but as close as she was to doing just that, she figured
she'd better alter her opinion.
"We need to talk."
Uh-oh. She didn't like the
sound of that one bit. With supreme effort, she eased out of his
embrace and straightened, teetering slightly in her heels.
"No. We don't," she
said, then turned and walked unsteadily into the kitchen.
"Eden, wait."
As she washed her hands at the
sink, she sensed his presence behind her. Dammit, she did not want
to hear his recriminations or regrets. Remorse had no place
whatsoever in the satisfied afterglow of one of the most
gratifying orgasms of the decade.
"We can't do this," he
said. "I can't. Not like this."
Unexpected anger slammed into her
so hard she nearly stumbled. "It's a bit late for that, don't
you think?" she snapped at him. She turned off the faucet and
yanked a paper towel from the holder to dry her hands.
What the hell had made her think
he'd be different from the others? He was, after all, a man.
Apparently the entire gender had been infected with the same
testosterone poisoning. Screw her and skip out the door, that was
their motto. Christ, she must have detailed instructions tattooed
on her ass -- remove dick and proceed to the nearest exit.
Okay, so maybe she and Jackson hadn't
physically gone all the way, but if he was ready to cut and run
before they even made it into the bedroom, then something was
definitely wrong with her. A sad little fact of her life, but
she'd find a way to deal with it. What she absolutely could not
handle was her friend and partner lying to her.
She tossed the paper towel on the
counter and removed the loaf of bread from the oven before facing
him. Folding her arms, she propped her backside against the edge
of the sink, then dipped her gaze pointedly to his crotch. The
outline of his erection remained impressively evident beneath his
trousers. "Looks to me like you wouldn't have any problems
finishing what you started."
He scrubbed his hand over his
face. "Don't blow this out of proportion, Eden. I nev-"
"That's not all I won't be
blowing," she said sarcastically. She clung to her anger. If
she didn't, the abject disappointment that even Jackson could do
this to her would take over and she might actually cry.
Like hell.
No man was worth her tears.
He stalked across the kitchen to
loom over her before her heart took its next beat. "This
isn't about not wanting you, dammit," he fired at her, the
frustration in his voice equaled the heated emotion lining his sea
green eyes. "It's about me-"
"Oh, please, Jackson. Can't
you be more inventive than that?" She forced a caustic laugh
around the lump the size of a bullet-proof vest lodged in her
throat. "If you're going to lie to spare my feelings, at
least have the decency not to feed me a line that predates the Ice
Age."
"Would you stop interrupting
and let me finish?"
"I'm listening, but make it
good. Just remember, I've heard them all. Go ahead," she
said, gesturing with her arm. "Give it your best shot. Dazzle
me with your creativity."
He drew in a long breath and let
it out slowly. No doubt a stall tactic to borrow time as he
searched for the words to blow her off in a way he hoped wouldn't
hurt her.
Too late, pal.
"There's nothing I want more
than to make love to you, Eden," he said in a calmer tone.
"But?" In her
experience, there was always a but somewhere.
"I'm resigning as your
sexuality instructor. If you're willing to learn how to give me
pleasure, then I have no problem showing you everything you want
to know. But only as your lover."
Her eyebrows winged upward.
"As my what?"
His lips tugged into a frown.
"I think you heard me."
Oh, she definitely heard him. She
just couldn't believe what she was hearing. So much for
offering a no-strings, casual, anything goes, sexual liaison. No
guy in his right mind would prefer to complicate obligation-free
sex with...what? A commitment?
She had a feeling she was looking
at just that guy.
"You sure about that? Do you
even know what the term implies?" She certainly did, and no
matter how she viewed the situation, the results made her queasy.
In the end, the kind of involvement he was proposing would
translate into the demise of their friendship and her having to
break in a new partner, or worse, completely transfer to another
squad.
"Mutual exclusivity, for
one."
She stared at him, utterly
stunned. Jackson Hunt, in a mutually exclusive, committed
relationship? They'd laugh her off the force if she carried such a
wild, unbelieveable tale into the ladies' locker room. She'd known
him to have two, sometimes even three, women dangling from the
proverbial string at a time. Hell, the man practically made a
career out of avoiding commitment-minded females.
Understanding dawned in one big Ah-ha!
moment. The old caveman, stand on mountain, pound manly chest,
double-standard bullshit.
"Look," she said,
"if you're worried about me sleeping around while we're doing
our thing, then don't. I'm not exactly planning on rolling out of
bed with you in the morning to go try out some new technique on
the first potential stud that bleeps on my radar screen."
"I didn't think you would.
You're not the type."
He really did know her too well.
There wasn't a chance in hell she'd ever sleep with another guy
while she and Jackson were involved. Not that she'd ever dreamed
he'd screw up a good thing by demanding mutual exclusivity, but
promiscuity in general simply wasn't her style. Relationships were
complicated enough without trying to simultaneously juggle two or
three at the same time, as he well knew.
So if he wasn't concerned with
her bed hopping, then what was he trying to say? Offer her
reassurance that for as long as they were involved he'd only put
his boots under her bed? She wanted more of what he'd given her
earlier, not reassurances she hadn't asked for and didn't need.
She rubbed at her throbbing
temples with the tips of her fingers. "You're confusing the
hell out of me. Why are you doing this now?"
He dragged his fingers through
his hair. "I don't like the thought of you using me to prep
for some other guy."
She blew out a frustrated stream
of breath. Why did she suddenly feel as if she were the equivalent
of a fire hydrant and he a big, furry German shepherd attempting
to mark his territory? "For some unknown guy,"
she corrected him. "I haven't exactly zeroed in on my next
intended victim."
"I don't see a
difference," he said stubbornly.
No, he probably didn't. He was,
after all, a mere chest-thumping man. "Well, I don't see a
difference, either. People do move on when relationships end,
Jackson. Or did you forget that part of it?"
He folded his arms over his chest
and gave her an impatient look. "You don't know that."
"Yes I do," she argued,
"because that's the way it works. And when the relationship
is over, it's rarely pretty. Besides, we'd practically be flushing
a great friendship and a solid partnership down the toilet,
too."
"It doesn't have to be that
way," he said, and started buttoning his shirt.
"I'm offering you sex, a lot
of sex. Adventurous sex. No strings, no complications, and you
seriously want a commitment? Have you lost your mind?"
"Maybe I have," he
said, looking perfectly sane. His careless shrug belied the
hardness of his stare. "The decision is yours, Eden. Take it,
and we'll finish what we started. Leave it, and I'll see you when
our shift starts Monday night."
"You're issuing an
ultimatum?" she asked incredulously. "Your way or a cold
shower?"
A positively arrogant smile
curved his mouth. "You bet your sweet little ass I am."
He glanced pointedly at his wrist watch. "Clock's ticking,
babe. What's it gonna be?" |